#Day 101: 10 April 2016

CONSTANCE

Too emotional! I told myself. I should have focused on ER promo and not on the emotion! Those are the words that went through my mind after I finished my sharing. I was embarrased. And passed my apology to the team.

But the story of constance always shed tears in my eyes. The story of how God is indeed a loving God. Allow me to share it again as a reminder to all of us about how our God is a loving God.

It was in 2006, after 2 failed opportunity of becoming a parent, we received another chance, Elsye was pregnant. We were happy, we were hopeful.

It was a normal day and I was in office, presenting about work to some of my colleagues when my phone rangs. My wife was crying, loud, saying "there's blood...". She fell from a broken chair at home.

Like the fast and furious, I drove and reached home to see her laying at the floor, crying. We thought we lost the opportunity again. I carried her to our room and called the doctor which advised us to stay at home and rest, dont rush a shaken womb to hospital as it may make it worst, he said.

I tell you, when you are desperate, you will know how important to rely on God. So, we pray, we pray and we pray.

Psalms 46 is our strength at that time, it says

"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling. Selah There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy habitation of the Most High. God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns. "Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!"

We kept repeating the verses till we both tired and Elsye fell asleep. And in her sleep, God gave her a dream. In the dream, she saw her father carrying a baby, a baby girl.

(Remember that it was during 3rd month of pregnancy where we do not know what was the baby's gender)

Her father called the baby "Constance". Eslye woke up and share the dream with me. And i told her that is a good sign, that God may have trusted us with a baby, becoming a parents.

The blood stop and everything was good. When the pregnancy turns 5 months, the doctor told us that it's a she. So, without any doubts, we follow what was given for her name. We named her: CONSTANCE.

Constance, is derive from the word "constare" which means "to withstand", it also means "steadfast" or "constant":

• To withstand: to stand up against : oppose with firm determination; especially : to resist successfully
• Steadfast: very devoted or loyal to a person, belief, or cause:not changing
• Constant: staying the same : not changing

I guess that is how God wants me (and all of us) to remember His everlasting love:

• For us to resist succesfully all doubts
• For us to devote and loyal to our faith
• To not changing with our love towards Him

The same commitment and love that He have shown to me through Constance. His everlasting love, ever changing love, are always for us and with us.

I pray for God's help that everytime when I see Constance, let me always be reminded about the great love He have poured for us. Through my daughter, through Constance, the evidence of His love.

Ah, this is much better than my sharing this morning. I can write and express myself better. Less emotion :)

But I am happy. To be able to share and remind myself about God. And thankful of ER sessions that allows me to be reminded, again.

It is another day full of blessing.

#fgccmalaysia #uplifting #constance