#Day152: 1 June 2016, Wednesday

THE PAIN LEVEL

Romans 8:18 - For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.

Oh my God, Lord Jesus!

The MRI result is out and indeed there is a sign of tear of the achilless tendon. The hero has fallen (read: Achilles is the hero in Trojan war story). As result, the doctor suggesting 2 steps treatment

1. PRP (Platelet Rich Plasma) injection

Where we will take my blood, separate the good platelet and inject it to the tear tendon. Then my leg will be cemented in ensuring full rest. From there we will monitor the result. It will take time and hopefully the 'hero' will rise again and back to normal.

2. Operation

Should option 1 brings negative results, then we need to open and fix the tear tendon. Operate and 'sew' it back.

And I said Yes to his proposal, well, I have no other choice. I need my 'hero' to be back on his feet.

I asked the doctor, "The injection, is it pain?". He then said "Yes". Without hesitation. I was like "........"

After some preparation, the doctor is ready. He took my blood (30 ml) then put it at the magic machine splitting the platelet from the other ingridient of the blood. We have around 10ml of platelet to use.

I asked again "How pain?, he became softer and said "Well, it depends on each individual, some okay, some cry". Again, I was like "......".

He started with local anesthetic. Leave it for a few minutes and then asked me "Are you ready?"

And I saw it with my own eyes, the needle went in to my ankle looking for the tendon. When they met, the doctor starts to push the platelet. There was a rush of pain but I can handle it!

The suddenly the doctor said "You are strong, it's done". I was like "Huh. It was pain but it was okay, bearable"

And no, I was wrong, I was really wrong. I was really really wrong!!!

Within seconds, the tsunami of pain came rushing and I was ........ (indescribable).

For those who know me well, you know my childhood and you know I can handle a considerable level of pain. But this my friend, breaks my personal record. This is now, the no. 1 physical pain that I have ever experienced.

My body starts to shivers and I start ... I don't know how to describe it! I just grunting in pain. Elsye was there to witness the wave of pain sucking me in to the hell of pain, out of this world!

It takes like 30 minutes to resides, with the help of pain killer, I slowly able to control myself.

Then I said to Elsye, "I can't imagine the pain of the Cross". This small pain causes me hell, I can't ever dare to imagine the commitmment, willingness, focus and love that Jesus shown that day, the day he walked to Golgotha.

I just not able to imagine it.

If we use this pain level, mine seems between 8 - 9. But Jesus? I think it goes beyond 10, 100.

What a love He have shown to us. Every step He took have an increased pain level, but he completed it, the maximum level, for us. To safe us.

He have wipe all our pain with His life. Thank you Jesus. Thank you Lord.

Revelation 21:4 - He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.

Another day full of blessing.

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